Farewell Celibacy!

 

Farewell Celibacy!

Where did we leave off? Yes, I woke up the next morning reliving the ecstasy from the night before. I couldn’t forget his hands and mouth and how they effortlessly traced my body. I wanted to feel them again—maybe more. I didn’t know but I had to find out.

I sent Soothed racy text messages. I told him that he made me feel so good last night that perhaps I should return the favor. He said that he didn’t expect anything in return but was intrigued. He wanted to know how I would return the favor.  “With my hot, wet, and eager mouth,” was my reply. Yes, I went there y’all. A few more naughty messages ensued and I invited myself over.

He left the door opened for me and I found him on the couch. We had a couple of minutes of small talk but we both know that’s not why I came. I sucked on his ear and rubbed on his d*ck through his pants. He started to breathe heavy. I went down further to kiss and lick on his chest. I told him to take his pants off. He complied. My mouth found its way below and I took him in my mouth. (I thought I was going to be a little rusty in the giving head department but it was like riding a bike—you never forget how to.) Oh, how I forgot how much that I loved to give oral sex! I was licking and slurping all over his shaft like it was the last popsicle in the world! His leg started to shake and quake and it turned me on even more! I enthusiastically fed off his reaction.

He couldn’t take it anymore. He undressed me and led me to his bedroom.  He laid me down on the bed and we performed 69. I’m usually not a fan of 69 because it’s distracting (I can’t moan with a mouthful of penis. LOL.) But it somehow worked this time. And it didn’t take long to feel that expected finger inside my ass but it felt Tony the Tiger Great! He came and climbed on top me. I was expecting for him to break out the toys but he inserted himself inside of me. Whaaaaaaa???? It surprised the hell out of me. He pushed my legs back and took charge of the pussy. It was so intense. His heavy breathing and shuddering drove me over the edge. It was so sexy to me. We both came at the same time.

We cleaned up briefly and he turned me over. At this point, I was feeling so good; he could have put it in my ear! LOL! It took some lube and a few awkward moments but he finally got it in. He was gentle and caressed me as he entered. It felt a little uncomfortable at first but once we got into the groove of things, it felt incredible. It unleashed another level of freak in me. I think I love anal sex.  Whaaaaaaa???? I moaned and screamed at the top of my lungs and told him to “fuck my harder” like a porno star. Yes, I went there y’all! He exploded inside of me. That has never happened to me before. I’ve always heard stories of how good cum feels inside of you; they were right. It feels awesome!

Afterwards, we lounged around, gushed over our exploits, and watched a comedy. I left halfway through the movie to shower and run some errands. I can’t believe that I’m no longer celibate. And I don’t regret it. But I do regret having unprotected sex. That is something that I rarely ever do. I hope he pulled out in time because if I get pregnant, I will put the White man in that White man’s life. LOL!

It wasn’t as romantic as I would have liked it to have been but it was intense, passionate, and spontaneous. I didn’t think that I would wake up the next morning and seduce him. Farewell celibacy! We had some good times and bad. Maybe one day you’ll return. In the meantime, I have made another vow. I have vowed not to have sex with someone who is currently involved with someone else. By the way, yes, Soothed is single.

Panties on the Floor!

Our kisses were better than this!

Well, it’s official. Operation Avoidance has been aborted. Shortly after I posted my last blog, we end up talking about the other night.

He wanted to know if I had any regrets about it. I expressed that I did. He also told me that he had no expectations of us ever being sexual like we did in the past but wanted me to know that it’s ok to feel sexual. It’s ok to want to be kissed and touched. And that he would exert more control even although he found me irresistible.

Wow. No man has ever told me that I was irresistible before. That made me felt sexy. And the fact that he wanted to resist me intrigued me. As silly as this sounds, I somehow wanted him to resist temptation. I wanted him to lose control so that I could.

Then out of the blue, he asked me the craziest question in the world. He asked me if I was looking to be in a relationship with him. Huh? A relationship? I guess he thought that I wanted to be in a relationship in order to have sex. I’m not going to dive in a relationship just to have sex. That ludicrous! This journey has mostly been about not using sex to self medicate. Becoming celibate wasn’t solely based on withholding sex because I couldn’t find a man. He is a cool person and I like hanging out with him but I don’t see him as a romantic prospect. I couldn’t help but laugh!

I went over to his place later that night. We had dinner, talked, and watched movies. Things got heated again. Very heated. After I used his bathroom, he met me at the sink unexpectedly. We started to kiss passionately. It was one of those kisses that I envied in the movies. It was one of those kisses that unleashed every feeling that has been lying dormant for nearly 2 years.

That’s when I knew that he was right; it was ok to feel sexual. It was overwhelming. The way he kissed and touched me made me feel like a woman again. His sense of control intervened and he said that we needed to get back to the movie. A part of me felt relieved but deferred in my longing. I became addicted to the feeling that he gave me. I craved more of it.

Everything else became a blur after we sat back on the couch. I was paralyzed in longing and didn’t care what happened next. We began to make out again. He led me to his bedroom. He undressed, kissed, and licked me all over my body. He wanted me to lay there as he gave me pleasure and honey chile I was ok with that! LOL! Every kiss and every touch felt like fire! He took me into his mouth and the feelings I felt were indescribable. All I could do was moan and shudder in ecstasy. I was shaking like a leaf! He inserted his fingers inside of me and I got wetter and wetter. My body was yielding to him—something that I never thought would happen ever again. I had two orgasms and felt sleepy. The intensity of it all tired me!

I woke up later and found him playing a video game. I told him that I was going upstairs to sleep in my bed. He wanted to join me but I declined. I wanted to snore, drool, and didn’t want any witnesses. LOL! I also needed to time to reflect on what happened. I told him that I had fun and would talk to him later.

Did I see this as another celibacy setback? No. I was in complete control and didn’t use the situation to make me feel better about myself. I also didn’t wake up the next morning regretting it. In fact, the opposite happened. I kept reliving it and need to feel that way again—soon. I wanted those panties on the floor again!

Stay tuned for what happened next…